Wouldn't have all these problems if I wasn't around in the first place. Would still have some but not as many. I'm just a failure that shouldn't be in certain peoples lives. Vladimir says its originally his fault cause if he hadn't started anything years ago then certain people wouldn't be where they are today. I don't know what to think about that but I do know certain problems wouldn't exist if I wasn't in your life. I should make an exit before the problems double more than they already have. I only cause destruction, sadness and chaos anywhere I go. No one in certain peoples lives are happy with me. Never were. Never will be. Probably not meant to be. Many things I want are either taken away or very fked up to begin with. I don't deserve many of the things in my life proven by the loss of a lot of things over the years. No need to fk up yours more. I'm sorry.
Brutal Telling from the Wings of a Reawakened Dark Angel by Jay Fallen (JAF) is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.
Here lately I have been feeling the same way!
ReplyDeleteJay, write the story of your daughter, it's powerful and explains a lot.
ReplyDeleteI might one day. Still struggling with the loss, a lot more than I'd like to admit.
ReplyDeleteThe night I wrote this was really dramatic. Things going on with my friends so called parents and my ex step mom and so on. I ended up kind of running off and typically anytime I'm not able to be found, its because I'm at my daughters grave. I go there in good times and bad. Helps me find strength some how.